Filters of Negativity

I am so grateful to you for revealing to me these truths.

So many people suffer along the spiritual path. It's a process of seeking... And with that comes breakdown.

We need our egos in order to survive. We need to understand what it is we identify with... And also, how we over-do it by too much thinking.

The ego is the guardian along a murky borderline of illusions... A place where jealousy, control, neediness, isolation, tyranny, oppression and paranoia are joined together by a long string of fault-finding.

Everyone deals with this on some level. Why this process is so exaggerated among those who struggle with mental illness is something else.

The more things are busted down, the more insecure someone becomes. And the soul goes through a dark night of extended pain, and limbo... Because when paranoia happens, the soul has lost its identity. The integrity of person's spirit and body has been crushed.

Actions and emotions like jealousy, control, neediness, isolation, anger, tyranny, oppression and paranoia are simply filters of negativity in the beginning. Something to pay attention to, and honor. It's not possible to change what is not acknowledged.

Such emotions are always signals to you, the one who is living the reality, to back down, regroup and recollect your self.

Is It True?

My mother is a bear...


No, it's not true; my mother is not a bear. She's a human being who continues to be deeply wounded, because she was abused as a child. Like many men and women I know... But with people, there is always a certain amount of denial. And with that, projection of abuse. So in my mind, it becomes a bearish, animalistic thing I don't always understand.

As a child, you learn to extend your energy beyond your body in order to "read" and predict the energy of another (also known as empathy). Not a good thing. It can make for a continuous identity crisis if you are never taught or encouraged to individuate... If no one has ever told you it's ok to love yourself, or shown you that all the real love you need comes from within.

There is a certain amount of paranoia that comes with being empathic. Many people live with it, not knowing this is the reason some are calling the New Millennium "The Age of Anxiety". Something we have inherited from the Baby-Boomers and bearish people who have been taught that life is "disposable", a throw-away.

Is it true, that my mother is a bear? No. It's not true, but I am also beyond caring because it has taken over 45 years for me to figure out the truth, and who I would be without this belief.

It's Always Been a Soul Thing

It's Always Been a Soul Thing

I'm really happy
to be wearin' your ring;
hope you clearly get it -
with me, it's always been
a soul thing.
Each time we meet
it's a love/sex reunion;
no need for separation,
it's a spiritual communion.
There's never been anything like
loving you, and our sexual space -
but if it makes you feel better -

I'll just think of you as a "Special Case".

Love and sex are synonymous -
with me it's loving, not no fling.
Be a Man
and understand
it's always been a soul thing.
There's never been anything like
loving you, and our sexual space -
but if it makes you feel better -

I'll just think of you as a "Special Case".

The Curse

The Curse

Once Upon a Time...
Young girls were told
all they have to do is fall asleep,
waiting in bait
for the handsome prince to come,
to wake us from
some unknown mysterious curse.

We weren't told
Waking Up is never easy...
No Prince can provide that service.

No Prince can resolve an evolution
in this fine-tuned creation called "me".