Saturday, December 15, 2007

Even in the midst of disaster...

Always keep in mind the words "darling" and "fabulous".

Monday, November 19, 2007

This Blog Is All In My Mind!

I am taking a break and developing some things I will add into this blog at a later time...
This Blog Is All In My Mind!
(Does that count?)

Friday, November 9, 2007

Everything Being and Becoming is a Celebration

being and becoming is
a celebration
of the spirit of love.

Where even their most morbid thinking,
thoughts of death, not one thing would
this great memory,
this lone desire for
loving face.

That single face!
The one which holds alone
pure kindness and
Perhaps no body member
despite the heart
can lift itself
in such delight and grace

To open fully, innocent,
to feel better and let go,
let your mind go
to the happiness you know;
join us,
in this great cosmic kiss
perhaps no body member
despite the heart
can lift itself
in such delight and grace

Sunday, November 4, 2007

In Memory of Frank C. Johnson, "Paris"; Portland, OR, 11/1/55-5/4/07

The Truth is Relative
by Gangaji

One approach to the grief of self-betrayal is to dramatize it, to make it into a dance, a song, or a play, glorifying the sadness and the pain. Another common way is to deny the grief, to push it down out of sight, to numb or deaden ourselves. It doesn't matter which we choose, the grief remains. The loss of being true to ourselves is still present.

We spend much time and energy accumulating powers, objects, and knowledge in order to avoid experiencing this core grief. Perhaps this avoidance is the real genesis of human suffering.

This dance is one of suffering, misery, and frantic absurdity. If you are at least somewhat exhausted from it, it is a good sign. In your willingness to keep dancing, to keep going and going, you lose the ability to stop and rest. To stop and rest means to turn and face what has been avoided by the dancing: the grief of turning away from the awakened innocent heart of your own being!

Saturday, November 3, 2007

Love and Respect Gives New Energy

Judgment is ugly — it hurts people. On the one hand you go on hurting them, and wounding them, and on the other hand you want their love, their respect. It is impossible. You love them, respect them, and perhaps your love and respect may help them to change many of their weaknesses, many of their failures — because love will give them new energy, a new meaning, a new strength.
- Osho

Friday, November 2, 2007

Truth is the Religion of the Whole Existence

Except for man, nobody lies. A rosebush cannot lie. It has to produce roses; it cannot produce marigolds — it cannot deceive. It is not possible for it to be otherwise than it is. Except for man, the whole existence lives in truth. Truth is the religion of the whole existence — except for man.

And the moment a man also decides to become part of existence, truth becomes his religion.
– Osho

Wednesday, October 31, 2007


You are not a child of this soil.
You may be captive here, but this is not your home;
this is a foreign land.
- Swami B.R. Sridhar

by David Bowie

Time -
He's waiting in the wings,
He speaks of senseless things;
His script is you and me, boy!

Time -
He flexes like a whore,
falls wanking to the floor;
His trick is you - and me - boy!

in quaaludes and red wine
demanding billy dolls
and other friends of mine -
"Take your time!"

The sniper in the brain
regurgitating drain,
incestuous and vain...
And many other last names!
Well I look at my watch; it says 9:25 and I think
"Oh God!
I'm still alive..."

We should be home by now!
We should be home by now!

are not a victim!
just scream with boredom!
are not evicting Time...


Goddamn, you're looking old!
You'll freeze and catch a cold
'cause you've left your coat behind -
Take your Time!
Breaking up is hard,
but keeping dark is hateful.

I had so many dreams;
I made so many breakthroughs!
But - YOU,
my Love,
were kind,
and love has left you

The door to dreams was closed.

Your park was real dreamless;
perhaps you're smiling now,
smiling through this darkness...
But all I had to give
was the guilt
for dreaming!

We should be on by now!
We should be on by now!
We should be on by now!
We should be on by now!
We should be on by now!


Tuesday, October 30, 2007


Whatever we may conceive is within the infinite. If we have an idea of the infinite broadness and depth of the Absolute, how can we value anything here?
- Swami B.R. Sridhar

Monday, October 29, 2007

Squeeze Each Moment, Drink Each Moment

O slave of desire, float upon the stream, little spider; stick to your web, or else abandon your sorrows for the way. - Gautama Buddha

A real person of understanding has no desire. She lives in the moment, and whatsoever is available, she enjoys it to its totality. She squeezes each moment, she drinks each moment! She eats whatsoever is available. She sleeps, but she is total in whatsoever she is doing. - Osho

Friday, October 26, 2007

The First Love Has To Be Towards Oneself

The body has to become weightless so that you almost start walking above the earth; that is the Tantra way to walk. You are so weightless that there is no gravitation, you simply fly. But that comes out of great acceptance. It is going to be difficult to accept your body. You condemn it, you are always able to find faults with it. You never appreciate, you never love it, and then you want a miracle - that somebody will come and love your body! If you, yourself, cannot love it, then how are you going to find somebody else to love your body? If you cannot love it, nobody is going to love your body because you will keep people repelled.

You fall in love with a person who loves himself, never otherwise. The first love has to be towards oneself; only from that center can other kinds of love arise. You don't love your body, you hide it in a thousand and one ways. You hide your body's smell, you hide your body in clothes, you hide your body in ornamentation. You try to create some beauty that you continuously feel you are missing, and in that very effort, you become artificial. - Osho

Sunday, October 21, 2007

I Believe in Myself

I Believe in Myself

I believe in myself
because it's me every day
who gets up to look in the mirror.
It's me who's gotta decide
what face and clothes I'll wear...
It's me
who's gotta get right
with my own heart and mind!
It's me who's gotta deal
with those who are unkind.
It's me who's gotta find a Way,
make sure no suffering or pain
is part of my making,
created by my own hands.
I can keep pushing forward
I can keep climbing upward
I won't be stuck in the sands
of mindless accidents,
and thoughtless "love".
I'll forge my way forward
with my best being to retrieve
and do it on the basis
that it's in me;
and I believe.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

Who's Gonna Catch Me?

"I'm afraid... I'm afraid they will catch me." - Judy Garland

Who's gonna catch me
being bipolar?
It's the worst fear we live with,
that fear of rejection.
I'm not alone when I realize
I can't lie anymore
can't be a people-pleaser
can't fake or pretend to care.
Something shifts inside
once you find
you've been sick all your life.

There is always a yearning, too,
that someone will save you
from yourself.
Such moments of unquiet disposition
Such times of deep, shakable loneliness
without compassion...
I for one
have had no choice
but to find compassion for myself.
Yet people like me
are continually
accused of being selfish;
when, if we could
we would give our lives
for just a few moments
of genuine love, acceptance
without the facades.
And we are so vulnerable,
it's true.

Friday, October 19, 2007

"Straighten Yourself, Straighten the Crooked" - Gautama Buddha

We are not in our bodies;

our bodies are
in us.
For this reason alone -
it's not useful to focus on faults and ailments -
to the extent they must define us.
We can aspire
to our own inner authority, to our own values
and moral codes:
we can witness our faults and ailments
We know in our hearts
if there's something we're doing wrong
we can change it,
and that is enough.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

The Way of Faerie, V - Learning Lessons

Why do we repeat the same lessons
over and over again?
Because we must learn them...!
Once a lesson is learned,
Knowledge Is Power.
If you have not learned the lesson
you must repeat it!
Thus: some never learn!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007


We all need times of rest,
in order to keep ourselves open to new possibilities.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

The Way of Faerie, IV - The Faerie Heart

The Heart must be kept
wild and free
with the use of gratitude;
this is the Secret
of Faerie Faith.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

A Pict Song, by Kipling

A Pict Song, by Kipling

Rome never looks where she treads.
Always her heavy hooves fall
on our stomachs, our hearts, or our heads;
And Rome never heeds when we bawl.
Her sentries pass on - that is all,
As we gather behind them in hordes,
and plot to reconquer the Wall,
With only our tongues for our swords.

We are the Little Folk - we!
Too little to love or to hate.
Leave us alone and you'll see
How we can drag down the State!
We are the worm in the wood!
We are the rot at the root!
We are the taint in the blood!
We are the thorn in the foot!

Mistletoe killing an oak -
Rats gnawing cables in two -
Moths making holds in a cloak -
How they must love what they do!
Yes - and we Little Folk too,
We are busy as they -
Working our works out of view -
Watch, and you'll see it some day!

We are the Little Folk - we!
Too little to love or to hate.
Leave us alone and you'll see
How we can drag down the State!
We are the worm in the wood!
We are the rot at the root!
We are the taint in the blood!
We are the thorn in the foot!

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Life Promises Nothing and Everything

promises nothing
and everything
depending on presumption
Nature's ward can be a
reducing us to waste
and consumption

Is it no wonder
only kings and queens
were allowed entitlement
when people were
torn asunder?
Even then

they also knew
the grave rebellion

of primitive mindsets

closing in with anger hatred and redemption
to plunder

I used to tell myself
academia was the same

pretending I was page
or messenger of the queen
Our faculty pacing
with sneering faces,
the students lost
like erring peasants,

all of us performing
more than serving

Waiting for our Union
like some random cavalcade of knights
to come in
and set things right

And I contemplate
such presumed attachments
wondering what remains are seen
if I myself
should chose good roles
as either
or queen?

Friday, October 12, 2007

Seek Out Your Original Face

Man has completely lost the vision of his own reality. The Zen people say: seek out your original face. So says Tantra. Tantra says: find out what is your authenticity. Who are you? If you don't know who you are, you will always be in some accident - always. Your life will be a long series of accidents, and whatsoever happens will never be satisfying. Discontent will be the only taste of your life.

You can watch it around you. Why do so many people look so dull, bored, just passing tremendously valuable time which we will not be able to recover - and passing with such dullness, as if only waiting for death? What has happened to so many people? Why don't they have the same freshness as the trees? Why doesn't man have the same song as the birds? What has happened to man?

One thing has happened: man has been immitating, man has been trying to become somebody else. Nobody is at his own home, everybody is knocking at someone else's door; hence, discontent, dullness, boredom, anguish...

How can you trust anyone else if you don't trust yourself?


Thursday, October 11, 2007

Personal Happiness

If you are happy at the expense of another person's happiness, you are forever bound.

- Buddha

My prayer is that women, especially, will stop giving their power and energy and to dead-end situations. I am always hopeful that women, especially, will attend to their own personal happiness, as a priority.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Staying Light

Our angels

would require
that we drop
all our weights
to the world
in order to see them

By focusing on
and doing the things we love

we begin the initial steps
of dropping dead-weight
and also

dropping sorrow

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Being Single is Fun, I

Being single is fun...

You can sit up late
in your bed at night
chewing bubble-gum.
You can read an erotic novel.
No one cares
where you keep your gum -
on the bedpost
(or a nearby hovel).

Saturday, October 6, 2007

Vision Evolution

Vision Evolution

In the process

of transference
only the unique and individual soul
can understand its evolution;
therefore Tibetan Buddhists recommend
that we look back on the past
with forgiveness
for it is only through eyes
of forgiveness

that our sight is restored and
we are once again able to see

Friday, October 5, 2007


Slavery to the Absolute
is the highest position of freedom.
- Swami B.R. Sridhar

Thursday, October 4, 2007

From Nothing to Nothing by Osho

These trees
were not here a few days ago,
and they shall not be here after a few years.
were not here a few years ago
and we will not be here after a few years.
So, it is a long dream. In the night the dream persists for sixty or seventy years. But just the duration of time cannot make much of a difference... Whether a dream is of one hour
or one hundred years
does not make much difference;
the difference is only of duration but -
it disappears.

How many people have lived on earth, do you know? Where are they? If they had not existed, what difference would it have made? Whether they existed or not does not make much difference;
they have all
That which appears and disappears is the dream.

Thus, the ancient, Saraha said:
Yet with certainty
must all things be viewed
as if they were a magic spell...

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

In the Middle of Two Nothings are All Things

Out of nothingness is born a tree.
Then come flowers, fruits, and a thousand and one things.
But each thing again becomes a seed, and the seed falls into earth
and again becomes that voidness.
This is the circle of existence:
from nothing to nothing, from nowhere to nowhere.
In the middle of of two nowheres is the dream, the samasara.
In the middle of two nothings are all things.
Hence, they are called dreamstuff;
hence, they are called maya,
hence they are called nothing but thoughts, fantasies.
This is the Tantra tree.
- Osho

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Listen to the Real

Remember to change your consciousness from the imaginary to the real. Always listen to the real. Unless you are very, very alert, you will remain in the trap of the imaginary.

The imaginary seems to be satisfying for many reasons. It is under your control. You can have Orandon's nose as long as you want - in your imagination. You can think whatsoever you want to think; no one can hinder it, nobody can enter into your imagination, you are utterly free. You can paint me as you want, you can imagine me, you can expect... You can make whatsoever you want of me, you are free; the ego feels very good. - Osho

Monday, October 1, 2007

Tantra is My Science

Tantra is my science. It is an easy-mix of meditation and balance, a way to work with oppositions and polarities. It is an exercise based in yoga, to help the body manage things like fear and anger. If more people practiced Tantra and yoga, it would be a different world. The Universe, also, would take on a different feel. Relationships between men and women would become softer and kinder; children would not feel like they were being abandoned.

Animals would be appreciated, treated respectfully. Human waste on the Earth would shift dramatically... People would learn they can heal themselves, doctors would treat us holistically. The planet would be cared for as Sacred Grounds.

Make Love to Yourself

Tantra does not say that to make love to the outer is a sin, it simply says that it is not very far-going. It does not condemn it, it accepts its naturalness; but it says that you can use that love-wave to go far inside. In that moment of thrill, things are not on the earth. You can fly. Your arrow can lead the bow towards the target. You become a Saraha.
- Osho, Tantric Transformation

Saturday, September 29, 2007

The Way of The Faerie, III - Innocence

Faeries are here
to teach us about innocence,
for all living beings
are interconnected;
therefore, we are not alone
in our transitions.
The faeries, devas, and nature spirits
guard over us and support us
We are surrounded by vast networks
of unconditional love.

Friday, September 28, 2007

The Way of Faerie II - Time Shift

When a Faerie appears
there are palpitations in the air
and animals near
always know

Sometimes there's a fresh fragrance

or a song;

at others,
the world gets incredibly still

Thursday, September 27, 2007

The Way of Faerie, I - The Elements

The Way of Faerie

You cannot control a spirit,
for a deva, especially, is wild
coming from the elements
she will also help you return to the elements
when you are
ready to die

In the world of Faerie
death is a regular,
if not seasonal event.

Faerie is born of aether
fire, air, earth and water
and works hard to keep
the heart of the human pulsating
and aware
they ask us believe
in order to help us see
how closed our hearts can be,
they outline the requirement
that we drop our attachments
to the contraptions of the mind
they may or might also take away
our minds

thereby enabling us
to get free

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Camp Wisely

What I notice is
there are those
who love to hang-out
at Campground Anger and Hostility...
Would I be a fool
to venture into
supposed comfort-zone,

to find someone?

Tuesday, September 25, 2007


True presence
continues to be felt,

and it endures

long after it's physical being

Monday, September 24, 2007

Right Thinking

You are what you think.
Think it today,
become it tomorrow.

Nothing can help us or hurt us as much
as the thoughts we carry.

Sunday, September 23, 2007


is never possible
without the help and support
of like-minded others.

Friday, September 21, 2007

The Difference Between Fantasy and Reality

What is the difference between Fantasy and Reality?

Reality is an intensive journey
into the core of one's pain
for many it is a lonely one
where things and people have to be given up,
let go of

Reality can give a person a moral compass,
and that's needed,
as in the end we are all looking for and needing peace

Nature is the greatest agent of Reality,
granting peace without our conscious awareness
between the two, a person could die

whereas with Fantasy,
the necessary deaths are prolonged
and played out for as long as it works for those involved
for as long as those invested are willing to give
their power away

Fantasy is circular

and Reality is straight-up

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Hope, Blame

I will try
to stop blaming other people.
It makes me lose hope.

Cinderella, by Millias

Wednesday, September 19, 2007


It's possible
to belong to many communities,
and to have many dreams
Thus it is easy to be dissuaded
from trusting ourselves.
Do we know what we're doing?
We are mislead to believe that large organizations
are communities
that by putting in our time, energy, service
we will be taken care of
We do it often at the expense
of our own bodies.

How do we begin
to listen to intuition?
How do you
become aware of what takes you
out of your truth?

is anything possible?

we are limited by what we can do
out in the world
we have to understand our own limitations
to be real about them, to work on them
we have to learn how to go within
in order to understand how to take dreams
in our own hands

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Respect, Now

Respect, Now

We teach people how we want to be treated

We underestimate the poisons of jealousy, ignorance, attachment...
So that

when I cop an attitude
you cop one, too
when I act entitled and trespass,
you do the same

when I make presumptions

you also learn to presume;
I am verbally or emotionally abusive

you are too

when we meet in a place where
anger becomes our comfort zone
I will blame you
and you will blame me

we might punish each other
with silence
we would become paranoid...
seeking ways to intimidate each other
we would condescend, to identify
with one another...
yet we would be
just like one to the other

There would be no outlets other than
physical abuse
or perhaps addiction
to sex, drugs, power

men do these things to us
and we do them
to one another

Monday, September 17, 2007

Take time

Take time
to be with the trees,
to walk in the rain
while the air is still warm

to watch the world

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Let the Pain of the Dream Go By

Title: Peter Murphy - Dream Gone By

Dream Gone By

Let go
all the tears of your life, the one you left behind
Let the pain of the dream go by
It's over

The love is calling! I'm searching!
You have gone to be free

The love is calling, I'm searching,
You have gone to be free

When the light had gone, and the night was over...
Yet the feeling will still exist
For you and me

Let go all the tears of your life
The one you left behind
Let the pain of the dream go by
It's over

And the feeling still exists for you and me!
You have gone to be free

Let go all the tears of your life
The one you left behind
Let the pain of the dream go by - it's over,
Oh, and as you fly past the sign
That points to our way?
Send your children a whispered song

Then allow yourself away

One two I am you; you are but a show
Three four; there's no more
your red mouth is aglow
Five six; no more tricks
Now I'm feeling clean...
The secret, yeah it moved so fast
Had to dive into mid stream

The love is calling! I'm searching!
You have gone to be free

The love is calling, I'm searching,
You have gone to be free

When the light had gone, and the night was over...
Yet the feeling will still exist
For you and me

Let go all the tears of your life
the one you left behind

Let the pain of the dream go by
It's over
Oh, and as you fly past the sign
That points to our way?
Send your children a whispered song...
Then allow yourself away

The love is calling, I'm searching,
You have gone to be free

When the light had gone, and the night was over...
Yet the feeling will still exist
For you and me

Saturday, September 15, 2007

When You Burn, You Burn

Learn how to be self-contained, so when you burn, you burn. Burning takes different directives, or is a way to surrender.

Don't bother to see yourself as being contained in the world, but rather. become self-contained.

Get straight with yourself, don't lie to yourself. Get to the heart and the flesh, blood and bones, and the meat of the matter.

When the world contains you, you are subject to battery, assault, psychic damage around the lack of values most others have. Jealousy is powerful, but played down; envy and greed are everywhere; misuse of power and lying are given to be the norm in our media; blaming perpetuates dramas, to the extent that it never stops. You can stop.

You can stop, and to do anything less is to be pulled off-focus; for in the end, we all burn, albeit not always gracefully.

Friday, September 14, 2007


Women tend to presume ideal friendships can be confidential. We are still learning about boundaries. Most our lessons are painful, different from men's, often resulting in physical pain, damage, and loss. Some of us are repeat-offenders when it comes to not "getting" the lesson.

We have to give ourselves permission to understand our own limitations. We have to be honest with ourselves, in order to explore what boundaries are. We are distracted daily, often challenged to learn how to listen to our own bodies.

We have to understand how it is that our bodies are sacred.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

The Blog is a place for Voice-Dialog

The Blog is a place for voice-dialog, a place to file thoughts, plans, concerns. So many people worldwide feel they do not have a voice, thus: a reason to Blog. Imagine sorting through your Blogs to see - "Hey, I thought THAT?" A Blog is a place for personal voice-dialog, a place to sort and file a voice, worldwide.

It's a voice-dialog, the Blog examines people places things in self-reflection but also includes new friendships, mutual recognition.

In the future, people won't write their Blogs, Blogs will be spoken.

The Blog will have the potential to become a confessional, used to ease the minds of the weary, before it's time to nod off... A diary of what was said and done. A word to What Is.

Sort on the Blog. Let it become your moral compass, if you have nothing else to believe in.

Make yourself your own highest ideal.

Create categories for Heart and Trust. (Don't worry about pleasing people.)

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

OM's Photo

Here's my photo... Yes, I'm a human being, how about you?